Remembrance

Author's note: I actually based this off of a song. The general theme of it is that there are all of these memories that keep surfacing. Some of them are good. Some of them are bad. The character wants to get rid of all of them though because the good memories just remind him of a bittersweet time when things are good and bad memories only remind him on how he managed to mess up everything. This is his way of asking for penance for everything he did, hoping to cleanse out the memories in the process.

Sorry.
I'm sorry for who I am.
Sorry I couldn't be better.
I'm sorry that I wasn't everything,
I know I never added up to what you wanted,
I hope you know I cared,
But everything crumbles around me,
I think I'll disappear,

If I could hold back this tide,
Would you clean me out inside,
'Cause memories are surfacing,
And agony is flaying me,
Tore through my mind and I can't see,
A brighter or better future for me,
I remember all the hurt,
The pain I bring, hopes in the dirt,
And shattered dreams.

I remember a happy life,
Filled with my dreams, but then I died,
Something in me gave away,
I broke down quickly, now the world is grey,
Won't ever be whole again,
These shattered hopes stuck in my side,
Blinding pain runs through my side,
I'm not your perfect, prince of hope,
I'm living here, with no place for dreams,
No place to live and aspire for more,
I'm not good enough, I know this now,
Never even had a chance,
I won't take flight.