Alone in the Dark

Author's note: The poem is about being/feeling trapped by society. Whether it be an individual or society as a whole, in the end, there is no one in that 4x4 white walled prison cell with you. No matter how much someone says they care, how close you are, or even those who have a plan on how to keep in touch, it will fail. You will be alone. No one will be there to comfort you. And then it'll end.

Sitting silently staring at these walls,
Wondering what I did to end up all alone,
Did I scare you with the thoughts inside my head?
Or was it just because you always wished me dead?
Thinking I had empathy when really I was meant to leave,
I can't really blame you for getting tired of my life,
I'd leave myself too if I only had a knife,
But here I stay, glaring at these walls,
Hating myself for every one of my flaws,
I do not think that I deserve reprieve, 
Just wishing that I didn't have to breathe.
I cannot stand the suffocating misery,
Trapped in this room where silence is the king,
I remembered laughter and a vague feeling of warmth,
Everything I failed to do and how it all went wrong,
So I'll scream at these white walls, hoping they'll collapse,
But echoes just ricochet back to me,
A crushing and depressing sense of loneliness,
Fuels my hate towards myself and all that I believed,
I didn't know what I could-should have said,
I don't know why you ran away,
I know I'm not the best of faces,
I know that problems would arise,
But I wanted to take that chance to hope and dream forever,
Leap to my feet and cleanse the pain away.
But I tripped.
I fell.
I don't know what I did.
I failed you,
It's over,
So now I'm all alone.